Christmas= Blah

Ao I am usually the one with the tree and lights up by the night of thanksgiving. This year I brought out no decorations. It was not a joyous celebration like usual. With the changes in our household, mainly Ry moving to his dads (which Ill talk about later), it just didnt seem like christmas. I cooked a big dinner on saturday and we ate and I gave the boys 2 presents each. Hate I couldnt give them more, but money is to tight. Gran stayed the night with us. After we ate we had to make the 150 mile trip to take Ry to his dads. What a horrible drive in the rain. Today, actual christmas day, Dakota and I dd nothing. I cooked some cinamon rolls and tonight I cooked some tamales. But other than that, nothing. I feel bad about not beingin the spirit, but how can you force yourself? Hopefully things will be looking up and next year we can do it the right way, but for this year, I think a little more tv and then bed to end this crazy day. Hope you all had a great day with family.